Irrational Fear #4: My Life is a Coma

This has been a deep down fear of mine for quite some time (since practically the beginning of the universe).  I don't know why, but whenever I'm having too much fun or having a great week or something, I begin to think that something will go wrong, which brings this fear back up.

Anyway, the fear is that my life is actually a dream that I'm having.  I am actually in a coma and have been for the past three hundred years since I've immigrated from the Black Forest of Germany.  The people and the places and all that jazz exist in real life, but I'm going to wake up soon and nobody will know who I am.  I won't have the job I have now, I won't have the friends I have now.  Yet, I still would remember everything that happened, which means I would be a Grade A creep.

But really, wouldn't that suck?  Just wake up one morning and Oh Hey!  Your entire life is actually a lie!  Sucks to be you!  Good luck making friends of the friends you used to think you have but really were just subconscious friends and they are still real friends with each other but you have to start your friendship all over so no laughing at any of the random inside jokes your soon-to-be friends tell.

I know somewhere in my brain that this probably couldn't happen, yet there is still that feeling that it might and that is what is keeping this irrational fear irrationally terrifying.  Anyway, it confuses me to think about it too much because it's sort of like messing with time travel.  Especially with the past.  I exist in the future, but I'm changing the past that will change the future that will hopefully cause me to not have to go to the past in the first place, but I'm already in the past to change the future so that I don't have to go to the past like I currently am.

Physics is dumb.

Anyway, I thought I could explain this in much more detail and a longer structure, but I'm sort of tired and feel I've done well enough explaining my fear, so that objective is accomplished.

So...yeah...what's new in my life you ask?  Well...

I've decided that I need a new challenge, so I'm doing P90X (terrible thing, I know, but don't worry, I probably won't die).  Also too, to aid with this challenge, I've decided that it would be a good time to start playing the whole Halo series, but backwards!  AH!  Now I've got some craziness into my life!  I'll try to keep it in check.

Do Widzenia,
Brian